tick, tick, tick

I feel like it could happen any minute now. Going into labor. i don't have my bag packed, we don't have a baby monitor, i don't have my birth plan printed off, or my mass text ready to go! haha. (UPDATE: i just printed off my birthing plan, 3 copies) I also woke up today thinking i will make this my last week at the salon. I'm not sure why, but i feel like i have so much to do still at the house. I HAVE NOT NESTED. BEN HAS. WHAT IF I DON'T NEST. does that mean I'm a bad mom already??? LOL. i know that is not the case but a little bit of guilt resides inside of me for not doing it yet. We have our next apt tomorrow, and after that we have another baby shower!!!!! I can't believe how blessed we are to have so many friends and family who want to give our baby so many good things. this will be our 5th! We had a boot camp shower, salon shower, baby party, and a Choctaw shower, and now ben's office. i feel so unbelievably lucky and loved. This baby is going to grow up knowing what love is. Last friday ben and i ran some errands after our apt. A guy in the parking lot of the mall said, "you smuggling in a basketball? ha ha ha". Then Ben and i left target and we heard a big booming voice from a moving truck shout out "BELLY!". Wow, and then just this morning i went to 7-11 and the guy holding the door for me realized i was pregnant and announced to the entire store "WIDE LOAD"... REALLY!? I'm excited to see how my labor and delivery go, I'm excited to see if my water breaks in public, i'm excited to see and hold my baby for the first time. Will it be a boy or girl??? will he or she have hair? what color?? how will Ben act during labor and delivery?? will i go psycho on everyone? I'm just waiting.....